Friendship

I feel helpless. 

It's like I know what the upcoming months holds for me and it doesn't benefit me but I can't stop it from happening. 

I can't force friendship. But I can't lose you either. You've been there for me through so much and I don't know if I can stand alone without you. Your my rock. I've lost too many people and I can't bare to lose you as well. 

You got me through so much. 

Have I done something wrong? Am I not good enough for you anymore? Will you give me the "it's not you, it's me" speech? Or will it start by you just ignoring me? Will I ever get an explanation? Or will you get up and leave just like the others.

I'm not in a good place right now to be losing you. It's never a good time to lose you.  

But it seems inevitable with the ways things are going. But could this just be a phase? 

- Andi